Looking for some advice....

Big Red Machine · January 20, 2006

Ill start off by saying I dont really know why im writing this here...its about the only forum I read so I guess ive got no where else to and that writing it might help me work through some things myself.

I am a student, or at least was. Last year just before easter I got Glandular Fever, a pretty bad case of it. Not only that but it messed me up a lot afterwards (post viral fatigue the doctor called it I think). Basically my trip to uni ever day was about hour each way and by the time I got there I was physically exhausted and/or felt sick as a dog. I took the time off and arranged with my uni to attempt the resits in the summer (last August) and if not resit the entire year.

However, in the summer my mum passed away after suffering from Breast Cancer for nearly a year. It was a complete shock to me (a combination of my mum not wanting anyone to know how serious it was and me hoping shed be fine). This completely messed me up, and still is. I was in no state to do the resits so I didnt, and my uni policy meant I could stay of until this January (Couldnt resit a term id passed)). I thought this was a blessing. The past few months, I had thought, had helped me work through everything and let time do its thing without any pressure or it being forced.

Now though im meant to go back to uni on monday, and I know im not ready. Whereas the other members of my family got back into their normal lives very quickly and are dealing with everything pretty well at the moment. I feel like the 6 months just left me trapped in my own little bubble and forcing my way through it will do me more harm then good, and now I havent got a clue what to do. I want to do this course, at this uni. Its perfect for me and I really enjoyed it. Im not sure whether theyll allow me to put it until next september and start again. Which in a perfect world I think is what Id be doing.

At the moment Im thinking about going to see my doctor and maybe get some councelling....but its fair to say im not the type of person that opens up vey easily...and id be just as scared of going through that as I am of going back to uni, but atleast it would have an end result and help me get on with my life.

ANyways that whats going on on...im just lost at the moment really, and looking for a bit of help/adive.

Edited January 20, 2006 by Big Red Machine

SkippyjonJones · January 20, 2006

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